Friday, June 13th, 2008
|
|
4:58 pm - So long? But not farewell.
|
So I want to blog again but for now I've decided to start one on a all new and fresh blog site. I love livejournal it has done me well but I like the features on blogger.
Also the idea is to eventually integrate it into my porfolio site: http://www.sheilasuarez.com. I want something a bit more... professional? How boring.
I'm gonna keep this account around so if I have important bulletins I can post it so I know my friends can see it.
Not like I was posting a lot on here anyway.
So here's the new blog:
http://birthdayzoot.blogspot.com/. Eventually to be integrated into my portfolio.
I just started it and really its just a way for me to write. Sort out thoughts. Who knows if I'll keep with it.
Love - S
current mood:  thirsty
|
|
|
|
Saturday, April 19th, 2008
|
|
2:05 pm - oh... no more lip piercing
|
lasted 4 days... if that.
Too annoying, not me.
though darn it was cute! - Sheila
current mood:  hungry
|
|
|
|
Sunday, April 13th, 2008
|
|
3:28 pm - o
|
so I did it.
Pierced my lip.
like this... 
Not actual pic of my lip.
I like it though the jewelry is honking big (as per a new piercing usually is).
Man I may be stupid but after 4 years of talking about it I finally did it.
we'll see how it goes - Sheila
Sorry mom.
current mood:  okay
|
|
|
|
Monday, March 24th, 2008
|
|
2:57 am - Dido's Memorial Service
|
2pm on Saturday March 29th @ St. James Orthodox Church on Airoso near the Community Center (it looks like an igloo).
Just a prayer service, not a funeral, will last approx. 45 min.
Afterwards, you are invited to join us at TGI Fridays. All welcome even if you do not come to the prayer service. I'm guessing we'll get there around 3pm-3:15pm.
If you knew Dido or know my family and want to stop in and see us, it would be appreciated.
Hopefully it will not be a sad thing, and just a rememberance.
- Sheila
current mood:  blah
|
|
|
|
Monday, March 17th, 2008
|
|
4:17 pm - Apartment still available in Gainesville
|
Please spread the word. Here's what my mom says.
"I'd give them a cut on the price if they say they contacted me through Facebook. 2B/2+ bath in very quiet neighborhood close to campus. Thanks, Guys....Love, M
772.708.7048 cell or desi77@comcast.net"
We also will soon have an apartment for rent in PSL.
- Sheila
current mood:  sick
|
|
|
|
Wednesday, March 12th, 2008
|
|
12:22 pm - Dancers Needed
|
I don't need a stupendous amount of people. Really me and Austin could do it... but.
Who can come do a show at the assisted living where Baba lives? Doesn't have to be choreographed and just 4-5 songs. Charity, no pay. The place is right in PSL.
Probably in two weekends on a Sunday.
- Sheila
current mood: sick
current music: Jerry! Jerry!
|
|
|
|
|
12:12 pm - Charles (Basil) Shumski
|
My Dido died yesterday.
Very quietly and comfortably.
A little after Christmas he had started failing and was in and out of the hospital. Finally he was put into assisted living. We found out a week ago he had Pancretic and Liver Cancer.
I went down this weekend and was able to spend some quality time with him and my family in which I will always cherish.
On Sunday me and Austin danced for him, and that kept him awake for a little while. He loves our dancing... and I remember taking him every Saturday to watch me dance.
Monday my brother had some really good time spent with him. He smiled at my brother and offered him money... which was his way. Quiet and generous.
Yesterday father Ernesto visited and anointed him, he was too weak for communion.
My mom took Baba with her for some errands, and while she was out she got the call. Baba was aware enough to say goodbye to him.
I am ever so greatful for him. If it wasn't for him my life would not be nearly as complete as it is now. He afforded me so many opportunities and was ever so kind. Even if they were out of his realm of understanding.
Of course I carry with me the guilt trappings of a 20 something granddaughter who wishes she had done more... gone to church more with him (he loved to sing and hear me sing), asked more questions... I really do not know enough about him.
But in the end I know that I did what I did and he never faulted me. Which almost makes the guilt worst.
He knew I loved him, we all did.
- Sheila
This occurrence has inspired me in a online project... I wonder if it will ever transpire. I need some solid developers... Perhaps I'll start by getting some consultation from my teachers.
current mood:  sad
current music: jerry springer in the living room
|
|
|
|
Thursday, February 14th, 2008
|
|
3:45 pm - room
|
taken!
thanks for the help and the interest.
Taken by Albert, boy magician.
- Sheila
current mood:  working
current music: working
|
|
|
|
Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
|
|
10:30 pm - yay and I drink good wine... that I made!
|
|
|
Monday, February 11th, 2008
|
|
9:13 pm - In case you didn't see the posting on Facebook.
|
We are looking for a roomie for when we renew at the end of April (April 25th).
Pluses:
-Dancefloor
-ultra cheap @225 per month plus utilities (usually around -$300 total a month)
-Friendly Family Orientated neighborhood.
-Small gym, pool and volley nets.
-3 miles from UCF (bikable!)
-Right in time for summer classes!
- we have a wireless router.
-home made wine abounds
No pets unfortunately. And no habitual cigarette smoking inside the apt.
There's a nonrefundable $150 - $250 fee to be added to the lease. No deposit required.
We need to know by the beginning of April or sooner due to credit checks. No matter what you will be approved since you will be grandfathered in. It just takes time to fill out the paperwork. Let us know if you are interested or know someone who would be.
We are awesome too.
---------------------------------------------------------------------
Brantt, Austin and I will be resigning the lease this Sat. It turns out we can add someone anytime after that. Of course we would we need someone hopefully by May so we don't have to pay the extra rent.
So yeah as soon as any of you good people know... or if you have any hints who might be interested.
Please let us know - Sheila
current mood: hungry
|
|
|
|
Saturday, February 9th, 2008
|
|
8:00 pm - PSLsers
|
Come out if you are over 21 to here my dad play at the Ashley in Stuart. 10am til 2.
- Sheila
current mood: blah
|
|
|
|
Monday, February 4th, 2008
|
|
1:00 am - oh mans
|
I have to go see the fam this coming weekend...
My dad has a big gig this saturday at the Ashley in Stuart. 10am to 2am. Who wants to join me and Austin? Only thing is it's 21 and up and 5 dollar cover (which is worth it).
More details at www.soulrebelband.com
Other than I'll be spending time with Dido. Trying to record some of this stories.
I may do a road trip with Natalie in May! I'm going to fly to pittsburgh stay for 3 days. Drive to boston. See them graduate and get my stuff. (I still have two suitcases) and then drive back to pittsburgh to fly out. Be gone a week or so. It's sounding like a most awesome idea.
I'm looking forward to it. Too bad it may be when Solomon Douglas comes into town.... :(
Also, planning most definitely to do some sort of volunteer over seas trip with Becky and Natalie either this summer or next. Probably next so we can save up money. If I don't do it this summer I really want to do something... a thought is an internship in DC or Chicago. Or if me and Austin get things rolling with our free lance business... go to spain and herrang. Hmm.. man. We'll see. I start applying for internships this friday.
just plans... we'll see how they go.
Other than that things are rough but good. I'm blessed though things have been overwhelming lately. Kind of need a break from the drama. From letting people down and expectation.
Wonderful but bittersweet news is that Adam's killer was convicted on two counts of 2nd degree murder. He'll be sentenced in a few weeks. At least some justice was served... My thoughts are ever with his family. I still can't comprehend it all. It's even hard for me to be around crowds sometimes.... I get skittish. Hard for me to watch violent movies. Had to stop watching Sopranos due to the violence though I'm slowly easing back into it. Really riveting series.
Life is so impermanent.
But we can't live afraid.
Flashes of Buddhism often cross my mind.
Anyway I better sleep though I'm wired. I just kind of want to rest... but there is no stopping. I'm just uneasy...
I have to be thankful. - Sheila
Pleasant weekend with Austin and his mom though. That was really nice.
Finished my first project of the semester for Java and C. Two projects already down for AJAX. Now I'm so far behind on a film project.... It's due Wed. and I haven't started (though neither has half the class). I have to do a story through pictures... I have so many ideas but no idea which to go through with. Maybe I'll post about that later.
current mood:  restless
|
|
|
|
Thursday, January 31st, 2008
|
|
12:06 am - I want one AIM name
|
I notice everyone keeps there's but I keep switching around... soooo.. let's vote
Delta Spark
or
Birthdayzoot?
Or a different one? - Sheila
current mood: thirsty
|
|
|
|
Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
|
|
12:50 am - Growing down.
|
So I'm now enduring the painful process of uncomplicating my life... of knowing my limits... and trying to get back to basics.
Someone says "Can you do that so-it-soothing (fill with activity name_?" And I can't say no... or worse yet I seek out new responsibilities! Too many hands in too many crumbly cookie jars. I always say "Sure I have that 30 min break between this activity and this activity." or I just won't sleep. I just push and cram it all in there. I get it done. Because yes I can! I can... but is it worth it?
But I need to sleep. I need to simplify.
If not for my own sake but those around me. I'm getting exponentially more high-strung. I remember a day when I was spontaneous and I could define myself as easy going. I kept on defining myself as that until one day I realize I was no longer that person anymore.. and that the day that no schedule was needed or desired was almost 8 years ago... middle school time?
I need to get back to my roots. I know I can't dodge all responsibility... but why create more than humanly possible (without loosing somethings at least... like sanity).
I need to get all Grapes of Wrath and knead my feet into the dusty soil. Too feel the ground and appreciate everything around me before I really do grow too old.
I need to kiss austin. Two and half years today... feels like an eternity. But more in a pearly gates and part of my soul kind of way, not the whole fire and brimstone feeling.
Thank you Austin - Sheila
He tastes like tai food. We are programming right now on the couch side by side.
Back to homework...
I want to write a poem.
current mood:  Overwhelmed
|
|
|
|
Sunday, January 20th, 2008
|
|
8:16 pm - let's see...
|
Every one go to this... THIS. And this.... THIS. Jensen should represent. I don't believe that last site is current but it will be the same weekend this year. Same idea.
Me and austin are making a crock pot dinner.... it's very full filling. Tastes domestic.
Doing lots of hw... sorry to have missed soflex but happy as to getting through the mound of "To Do"s I have.
Okay back to work - Sheila
Austin likes to make it as cold as possible in this house so that he may snuggle me... What a bunny he is.
current mood:  busy
|
|
|
|
Thursday, January 10th, 2008
|
|
5:23 pm - What's up?
|
Does anyone know anyone who needs an apartment in Gainesville or Port St Lucie!?!
Spread the word my mom has some properties that need to be filled a.s.a.p. Contact me if you know someone.... deltaspark@gmail.com
Yup things are good... just overwhelming... trying to keep calm. Taking 6 classes... 2 directed studies (one for sure). Teaching swing a lot.... on a swing troupe too... and all I want to do is play video games!
I shall not complain too much... I'm lucky.
So far this year? Had a drag party... lost 5 pounds... going to perform friday at the UCF dance!
fun funnnnnnnnnnnn.... Helping with choreography on a new routine. Shall be grand and funky.
Okay its cold and I have to continue running errands.
- S
Check it out: me and austin teaching swing in Jan at the UCF Swing Club... (Swing Knights.org)
I'm typing on a JAGUAR... Mac... Lab.. at UCF.
current mood:  cold
current music: air conditionarrrr
|
|
|
|
Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
|
|
4:22 pm - addicted to this
|
This Song.
Gives me chills.
Me? Took off work so I could get some housework and homework done. It's going surprisingly well.
I do want to nap and play FFXII but I'm resisting and I'm proud.
Things up since last?
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN ME ROOMIE!: You can now buy ME alcohol!
- Bob is coming into town Sat from England. That's exciting.
- Involved in too many independent studies then are good for me... I'm going to have to turn down two. But I have the chance of either working on a site on Peru, on China, or independent film software. Right now sticking with the Peru one... and hopefully going there this summer! Details Here
- Still Majoring in Digital Media with a Minor in Computer Science: Want to dance and do websites!
- Finalizing schedule for next year.
- Austin and I if you don't know now teach every Thursday at UCF (not during the break of course). It's a learning experience and we are getting much better. We'll even be teaching during friday night dances during the Spring
- Austin, Megan and I are also officers for the Swing Knights at UCF were we plan large dances every Friday, small dances around campuses weekly, weekly club meetings (which we teach at) and out of town trips! It's full time.
- Getting the trip plans together for Lindy Focus VI. We got most of the money we needed from the school to take 10 people to this fantabulous 5 days of swing dancing up in Asheville, NC.
- Over break I have many web project... too many. Hopefully get me and Austin's freelance site up. Finishing up my dad's right now
- Portfolio I Built: For my new job. Been there 2ish months. Most awesome. I work alongside Jared and Austin. Most interesting. But awesome. Less pay but less stress... and lots of learning in my field so its worth it. I program the pages for the university's online learning classes and do tech support. And in my extra time I work on special projects.
- Made a short film. Premiere this friday!
- Bought a dance floor.
- Family doing pretty good. My brother is kicking ass in graduate school.
- Joined a local dance troupe called OCD. Competed in Tennessee for the Harvest Moon Melee. Did well. Here's a video from a local performance: Here. I'm in the middle with Mike Register.
- Kind of part the Swing Knights troupe that Natalie started
- I can kind of joke about getting kicked out of the comedy troupe now... I've pretty much gotten over it. That smarted!
- Austin. Well Austin is most Awesome. I'm so lucky I can't reiterate too many times.
- Relearning/learning it better: the Big Apple
- In conclusion: I'm a very lucky girl.
I think that's it... gotta get back to c programming final project. Which is going surprisingly well.
I'm computing wages! - S
Brantt gave this mouse a cookie and she wants another.
current mood:  content
current music: Brandi Carlile - Pandora Radio
|
|
|
|
Monday, December 3rd, 2007
|
|
9:31 pm - Mans
|
Old dogs learn new tricks.. hardly ever.
last minute on a project once again.
My time clock is all screwed up... stayed up 'til 7am. Slept through two classes until 2pm.
Don't know whether I'm coming or going.
Time to breathe once midnight strikes? - Ess
Me and Austin might be going to Peru this summer.
current mood: busy
current music: NadaSurf (Pandora Radio)
|
|
|
|
Saturday, December 1st, 2007
|
|
6:28 pm - Life
|
So... a good friend of mine from st. pete the Swing Reverend Jesse Wolfe was over today and instead of working on my projects (of course) I degraded into an impromptu sharing/poetry reading with him. Twas nice.
It got me thinking about a lot of things, missing a lot of people and wishing I could be better.
Made me want to write.
My life is so hectic that I often don't find the time to keep in touch like I should or do the things that mean most to me. Though I try to be the best friend I can to those that are near. It's a large excuse though that really if I managed my time better I could find time for those who mean most to me. Yet I take on more projects and drift farther away, cram some more things into the tight space that is my life.
I just know so many damn people ;P
And It makes me sad to think of the divides that time has created.
I know in some cases with institutions that meant so much to me in some small or large way (facebook and BU) I don't like to frequent them (this is more for facebook and some for lj, I really don't avoid Boston) because it brings back such strong feelings of loss, love and time passing that it's often hard to face.
I often think of the Ben Folds Five song "It sucks to grow up".
Why do I feel so old?
I still have nightmares about BU... about Peters...
At least PSL still feels like home. Though I barely hold contact.
And Orlando, has been so good to me. I am blessed. Too bad I have horrible case that I realize now (and sorry to those it hurt) of always wanting to be somewhere else, and not living in the moment. I really am elitist and it's horrible.
Anyways it motivated me to come back on lj and read around. Now I realize it's 6:30 and I have to go to a birthday party of my good friend Mike Register in an hour... so if I have any hope on finishing the two, month long projects that are due on Monday I should at keast start now.
So instead of totally catching up and showing I care by posting comments and such on every friend's page.
I would like to write this semi-short post in dedication of those I love and shaped the way I am today.
I can only hope I find my way back admist the distraction and excitement of my current every day life. The life I yearn to simplify but do not act accordingly. As I complicate even this entry.
Each day I pray for strength to whatever is above us or within us for strength. And I etch a little bit at the virgin clay that molds me, hoping to become that better person, more organized, more caring, more in the moment whatever it be. And every day I feel a little bit better. Or at least I hope.
Because really, what more can we do?
Much Love,
Sheila
current mood:  melancholy
current music: fish hum
|
|
|
|
|
6:13 pm - Hi
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
eatther0ses's journal
happy
